Mic check. Is this thing on? Thought I should probably introduce myself. My name is Marie. This is my blog. I started this blog to share my story and the ups and downs of my life. This isn’t a lifestyle blog. This isn’t a parenting blog. This isn’t even a journal blog. This is just me, uncut. I am hoping to be as candid, honest and open as I can. The reason is, there is a lot of crap on the internet, a lot of stuff that is written to improve your life, make you happy, make you money. But I am writing to tell you there is nothing wrong with your life. Let me say that again… THERE IS NOTHING WRONG WITH YOUR LIFE. Everyone has rough patches, everyone has done things they regret, and everyone has bones in their closet. Heck, I have stuff that I would rather just sweep under the rug, but I wont. I am opening my book, so everyone can read my story. I am sharing because I am not ashamed of myself and who I am. And I definitely do not want to hid behind a veil of lies.
Little bit about myself. I am a forty something, pretending to be a thirty something, while living my life as a twenty something. Let me explain. The first part is the actual truth, I am forty something. Though I like to pretend I am not that far along in life. I get out, hang out, and live my life like any other hard working thirty something would. But in reality, I am living my life as a twenty something. I am still trying to figure out what I want to be when I grow up. I feel like I am closer than I have been. I finally have a goal, and I am working toward it. I just graduated from college. I have my whole life ahead of me. And I am scared as heck, but here I go.
I am also a single mother. I have four amazing boys. Yes, all boys. And yes, all have the same dad. Strangely that is a question that I get asked a lot. Really a lot more than I would like to admit. And what if they weren’t? Does that really make them any less mine? Do I still love and feed them? Really, the proper answer is Nonya! As in “none ya business.” I have one in college, one joining the Army, one in high school and one in junior high. I will most likely write about them from time to time. And trust me it isn’t all unicorns and ice cream. There are many trials, tribulations and down right scary things that go on in this house. I also happen to homeschool them, because I like being part of that process. We work hard some days and have lazy days too. But it is a huge part of our family.
As I said, I am single. And for the first time in forever, I am putting myself back out in the dating scene. Seriously, this is one of the scariest things I have ever had to do. But I think I am actually ready now. And by ready I mean I can take rejection without beating myself up over it. I get it, I am not everyone’s cup of tea. And really there are few that will be mine. I am planning on having fun with this process though. I am not looking to get tied down or married anytime soon. I just want to have fun, cue “Girls just wanna have fun.” Best part is I am moving to a new place. A town where no one knows me. Yet. I really get to forge new territory, and try new things. And have some good ole fun in the process. Definitely will be sharing more on this as things unfold, so stay tuned.
I think I have shared enough, and probably bored you to death. But hopefully I also intrigued you to want to read more. I hope to see many return readers. I also love feedback. It lets me know what I am doing right, wrong and things I can improve on. Though if you want to be spiteful and mean, this is not the place for you.
See you real soon,